Tuesday, March 22, 2011

30 seconds in the head of Shahrzad

I am a single mom.
I am a single mom at 27 years old.
Did I really just type that?
Is this really my life?
Didn't I just get married?
I am no longer able to just say Im single, Im now divorced.
Am I going to be alone forever?
How am I going to raise this precious boy all by myself?
Oh my gosh I have to date again!!!!
I need to lose 15 pounds.
Is Owen going to have a horrible idea of marriage for the rest of his life.
Oh my gosh, Owen will have a stepmom.
If I ever have another child, they will look completely different from Owen.
Oh my gosh what if I never have another child?
I have no idea what I'm doing.
Do I ever want to get married again?
What should a relationship really be like?
Oh my gosh I have to have a first kiss with another guy again!


These are just a few thoughts that go through my head sometimes.