The past 4 days of my life are something I hope none of you have to experience... I had a normal Saturday day... I went to Target with Ilene and Andrew, ( I got Owen the cutest outfit from Dwellstudio, a cute kimono onesie and little booties and a hat, I can't wait to see him in it!) I went home to relax and watch the DVDs Adam had rented me... at around 11:30 my right side and lower back started to hurt, I thought it was the spicy food I had eaten... I took a bath, I tried laying on my side, about an hour later the pain got so intense I couldn't handle it and I started to get scared. I called Adam who was at his studio recording his friends and told him he had to come home, I needed to go to the hospital... we called my poor sister in law who was sleeping at 1 a.m. and asked her what she thought it was, she said we should definitely go to the hospital... as soon as we got to the ER the pain stopped a little and I felt silly, I checked in and then as soon as I sat down it got HORRIBLE, the worst I had felt all night, (probably the worst I have felt in my life!) they got me into the ER, gave me an IV, checked baby Owen in an ultrasound who was just fine and moving around and FINALLY what felt like forever later they gave me morphine and phenegren  and I felt like a new woman... they then gave me a detailed ultrasound, saw I had a gallstone and a swollen kidney, which they thought meant I had a kidney stone.. I had to get a yucky catheter and saw that what they believed was true, i wont tell you how they knew... I laid in the ER while poor Amy and Adam watched me sleep for another 3 hours till I was discharged at 6:30 a.m. I got home, slept until 11:30 and woke up took my medicine and thought thought that the worst was over... well it wasn't... at 5:00 it was back with a vengeance... we returned to the lovely ER for another round of blood work, pain medicine, heard Owen's heartbeat and another LOVELY catheter... I passed 2 stones so far and my side is very sore... I heard from my nurse who had a 10 lb. baby that her kidney stone was far more pain then labor, so I guess Im prepared then... I am very thankful to God to not have the nasty stones anymore and am excited to get this week over with at work and go home to see my wonderful family this weekend! my sista is in town with my aunt terri, I'll be staying with my aunt Pam, which is always wonderful! I cant wait to eat lots of turkey and mashed potatoes! 

On this very, very cold evening Owen and I are hanging out at the house watching Big Love, the latest from netflix, together. Our bellies are full from lots of yummy snacks Adam got us, I can tell Owen is very happy because I feel like he is doing flips in my belly, which is my absolute favorite thing in the world. I started feeling him move at exactly 16 weeks, I love it!

Its so exciting to be eating again, after losing 10 pounds, and being absolutely miserable for the first 3 and a half months of my pregnancy things have finally started to calm down, I still gave to take my zofran consistently otherwise I feel sick most everyday, but at least now I want to eat! 

We are off to relax and hope it snows!

It's a boy!!!!!

sucking on his tiny hands!


Three things I know about this angel of mine:

1. He is stubborn like his mother! For the first 15 minutes he would hunch his shoulders and refuse to be moved, even as I begged and prodded my stomach to get him to move a bit so we could see what it was, much to my embarrassment I had to get a pelvic ultrasound to find out what he was since he would not uncross those legs.

2. He has 4 chambers in his heart, a nice shaped spine, 2 kidneys that look great... overall he looked like a healthy little boy!!! Praise the Lord!!!

3. He is very sweet and loves to have his hands by his head and also likes to suck on his hands... the whole ultrasound he had his hands up by his ears and a one point he was sucking on his hand

I love him so much!!! I was a bit shocked because to be honest I thought it was a girl, I bought her a tutu and had been speaking to poor Owen as if he was a girl for the past couple of weeks, but now I can't imagine having a girl and am so in love with this little tiny boy moving around, which today I know I have felt several times. 

My husband Adam, my mother in law and my best friend Ilene went with me to the ultrasound, we conferenced in my aunts in Hilton Head and Dallas so they could hear the big announcement! It was a wonderful time and I am so happy!!!! Enjoy the pictures of my beautiful BOY! 

This upcoming week looks to be an exciting one, we (hopefully if the baby cooperates) get to see if we are having a boy or a girl. Im so anxious... I cant wait to see what our little one is doing, I wonder if it is an active baby, sometimes when I lay on my belly I feel like I can feel it moving in there, but then I feel like I must be crazy, they say you can't even start feeling movement till around 16-18 weeks and even then they are small movements, but I like to think thats what I feel:) 

Today I went to the mall to buy some maternity shirts, as mine are getting a little short these days.. I was in the mall all alone since Adam is out of town and who am I kidding to think he would be excited to go to the mall at 7 p.m.... I was leaving after getting a couple of shirts and there was a pregnant girl who looked to be around my age and her mom, they had been shopping for clothes for her. I was behind them almost the whole way to my car, as I got to my car I felt overwhelmed and sad... I don't get to shop with my mom, on Wednesday when I find out what our sweet baby is, I won't get to call her and my Grandma and tell them what Im having... I had a dream a few nights ago about them and woke up crying, I really miss them, really, really, really miss them... but then I realize when I get sad about my mom not being here that she already knows my baby, she and my grandma are caring for this precious one up in Heaven right now. My mom and grandma (jilly as we call her) always loved babies, i know its from them that I get my love of babies from, in fact next to their bench where their ashes lay is a sweet baby, who I remember thinking when I went with my mom and aunts a few years back when my mom was still here that we knew she was next to the baby because she was watching over it for it's parents. Im off on a tangent.. but what I realized is that God knew my heart's desire has always been to have a baby, and I know that he has brought Mom and Jilly up there with him to watch over this baby, and that when it comes to this earth it will bring a little piece of them with it, and so at times like tonight when I am sad to not have my mom to share this experience with, that we really are! How amazing our God is!

this is a very ADD blog, I apologize... my husband is out of town and I have a lot on my mind...

I wish I knew how to post links on here, I am new to blogging and don't know how to do any of this, but I want you all (if there is anybody reading this) to read so many of the blogs I keep up with... there is baby Stellan who is a miracle baby, he wasn't supposed to survive, but through the Grace of God he is still here and it appears that there is nothing wrong...(www.mycharmingkids.net)  I want to share this with so many people who don't believe that God still does perform miracles! So... if you know how to do this, please tell me.... then there is my friend Jason and his lovely wife Vanessa who gave birth to conjoined twins, though they only lives for about an hour, they are truly amazing little beings and their story has truly made an impact on me... (www.goodtimesdelgadostyle.blogspot.com) then there is Angie and her family, between she the Delgados and mycharmingskids' stories they have almost renewed my faith, through the past few years I have felt so insignificant to God, almost like I wasn't good enough, and I know God led me to these blogs, these people and their stories to show me that nothing is insignificant and that everything that happens in our life truly happens for a reason and that God is always here and listening to us. Then there are the Neilsons and their sister Courtney.... www.nieniedialogues.blogspot.come and blog.cjanerun.com... and their story of faith, and love and devotion to family that amazes me each and every entry that I read... its for these very reasons that I desperately need to know how to put links on the side of my blog... you need to read about these amazing people! I think once you will your life will be touched like mine has.. its amazing how so many people, most of which I have never met have had more of an impact than some people I have known for years and years, I thank you Father God for bringing me to their stories!

Dear baby,

Today you participated in your first election. Luckily for you and I we didn't have to wait in line, we went right in and the woman was so nice, (even though I know she totally wanted us to vote for Barack Obama and little did she know I was going to do that anyway, yeah I said it) it only took us a couple of minutes and tonight as I sit here at 12:01 a.m. on November 5th, watching our new president give his first speech of his term. As I sit here and watch this, I wonder what you're doing in there. I wonder what you were doing as I so excitedly went to cast my ballot today. Someday when you're grown up and learn about this day in school, I will tell you the story of the day we voted for my first time and this day happened and tell you what you and I were doing, hopefully I will be able to read this to you... well little baby of mine, I am off to bed, I love you!

It has been a long couple of weeks, my morning sickness had gotten worse than ever and I wasn't able to hold hardly anything down, finally at my 13 week appointment and after a 10 lb. total weight loss my doctor put me on the miracle of all miracle nausea drugs Zofran. I also got to hear our precious little bean's heartbeat... it kept moving, so she kept having to move around to find it, but then it sat still for a couple minutes to hear it was a good, strong heartbeat. In 2 weeks and 3 days we will find out whether it is a boy or a girl, I'm so excited, but mostly excited to get to see what it's doing in there all day... I'm hoping by then I will be able to feel it move! For now, I am off to clean, since today is the first day in 7 weeks that I have not felt like vomiting all day! And I really want velveeta shells and cheese!